Testing, testing......

It's a strange thing getting what you want. Suddenly, you're not sure you actually want it any more.

I went to the doctors today to talk about my irregular cycles - anywhere between 29 and 50 days. I wanted him to take me seriously and do something about it and he did. He is sending me and C for fertility testing. Rather than being happy about it though, it suddenly made everything very real. Even the doctor thinks we might have a problem. That's scary.

The form he gave me has 'INFERTILITY TESTING' in bold underlined letters at the top. Infertility is a strong word. Barren, bare, not fit for purpose.